My Little Concern.

*Previous post is now the second last post for this semester. This is all emotional, if you don't feel like reading something not fun, please don't start.

Life goes on, and it is sometimes really troublesome. I don't know how should I put my thoughts all together here today but I'll try not to express that I am all about myself (in fact, I am). Ok, I am all about myself today.

Little things that I found keep bothering myself over and over, little things that keep wandering in my subconscious mind:

> It is not easy for me to build relationship with people. I guess I am not good in social life. I encountered several incidents in my life that shattered my trust towards people, which I think is not totally their mistakes, but some are mine. I feel terrible that I've not been taking care of them good enough.

> Sometimes I found myself wondering what the heck am I doing on the bed. Those extra sound effects, give me almost the same effect as caffeine. Why should I be forced to hear what I don't want to hear? The same thing when I am 'looking' at my chemical reactions, or the historical facts of Islamic civilization, etc I do want a moment of peace. And why should I bother telling others about this over and over? Keep reading...

> I don't like to explain the same thing over and over to the same people. If I have once told you about something, I don't feel like to express that again and again. (I think that's one of the reasons why I keep getting myself bothered) - I just don't like to express myself so much. If I told you once that I can't stand something, can you understand that it means I can't stand it forever. If I don't like to eat that particular thing that day, it means I don't like to eat it forever, not just that day. I'm really tired. And I'm tired...

> I'm tired of people judging. Judging is not constructive criticisms. Criticizing gives some room for improvement but judging gives none - it's destructive. If you don't know me good enough, don't say that and this (bad things) about me. Who are you to judge me? Yes, maybe you want to improvise me because I'm not good, but please, don't judge. A piece of sincere advice is a lot better than a judgment. Give me a room to breath, I'm normal person, I'm not perfect - do remember that fact.

> And don't judge me after reading this emotional part of mine - and don't bother to comment if you don't want to - I just want to release something in me today, something that I've been dying to release long time ago.

Wish List Updated...

I went to Ipoh on 22nd October with my best buddy to buy a new phone and a graphic tablet. My original plan is to buy the phone during this coming semester break, and a tablet next year. But I suddenly changed my mind.

Right now, I'm still trying my best to figure out how to use the tablet - it's a Genius, not a Wacom (Wacom is the best brand for graphic tablet) but I think it is good enough for a start. It's just for fun anyway. I hope I'll find some time to use the tablet later, which I really doubt it. Final year project, and final year design project have given me good enough reason to be busy until the end of the semester.

I don't want to spend so much money (above 1000) for a phone, so I could not get my hand on a Nokia N82. I ends up with N73 ME. Alhamdulliah, so far so good. Hopefully I can use this phone as long as possible just like my previous phone (about 4 years). I've discovered most of the functions in the phone since I am very familiar with Symbian OS - the same operating system for my previous phone.

PSP is out of my league right now because I found out that my interest in games has grew weaker. Does that mean I'm getting older, and more mature? Probably NOT. I still miss Marvel Ultimate Alliance game so badly, sometimes.

What about next year, what will be my next gadgets? I would love to have a new Canon/Nikon DSLR next year. I would love to discover photography - showing the world through my own perspective through the camera. I'll also reconsider a PSP if I change my mind about games again later.

So many things to consider, huh? Surely, this desire knows no limit - the only limit is actually how much money in our hand and how we want to spend it properly.

Tomorrow there will another test (the last one),last class for this semester, another project report to be submitted - and next week will be the oral presentation for final year project I?? What?? Forgive me my supervisor, my work has not yet been growing so much.

Last but not least, my final exam will be from 10th November until 27th November - wish me luck everyone. This post is probably my last post for this semester. Until then, see you!

p.s: Good luck to those who are going to sit for final exam! Let us fight for our best :D

Are you happy?

I found these beautiful thankfulness words from my friend in DeviantART, and I thought it would be nice to share them with you here.


I am happy:

For the wife who says it's hot dogs tonight because
she is home with me and not out with someone else.

For the husband who is on the sofa being a couch potato
because he is home with me and not out at the bars.

For the teenagers who are complaining about doing dishes
because it means they are at home and not on the streets.

For the taxes I pay
because it means I am employed.

For the mess to clean after a party
because it means I have been surrounded by friends.

For the clothes that fit a little too snug
because it means I have enough to eat.

For my shadow that watches me work
because it means that I am out in the sunshine.

For a lawn that needs mowing, windows that need cleaning,
and gutters that need fixing because it means I have a home.

For all the complaining I hear about the government
because it means we have freedom of speech.

For the parking spot I find at the far end of the lot
because I am capable of walking and I have been blessed
with transportation.

For my huge heating bill
because it means I am warm.

For the lady behind me who sings off key
because it means I can hear.

For the pile of laundry and ironing
because it means I have clothes to wear.

For weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day
because it means I have been capable of working hard.

For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours
because it means I am alive...


Are you happy? Whatever you do, I hope you are.

Tag #7 - 7 Facts (to MenCaPuB) about YourselF

Kali ini tag diterima daripada Wusna Dewi dan Kak Budu dan Burgers. Terima kasih kakak berdua - the tag is yet another opportunity for me to mencapub. Hahahaha. :P

Rules of the tag:-

• Link to your tagger and post these rules in your blog.
• Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
• Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
• Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

7 Facts about myself - Some Random, Some Weird

1. Saya suka makan - semua makanan saya suka tapi yang paling saya suka ialah masakan kampung. (sayakan orang kampung - hihihik)

2. Saya suka minum - semua minuman saya suka tapi yang paling saya suka ialah susu yang baru saya beli minggu lepas.

3. Hand phone saya rosak sekarang - jadi jangan telefon saya!

4. Saya suka tidur - jangan kacau saya masa saya tengah tidur. Kalau tak saya emo! Hahaha.

5. I'm addicted to Grey's Anatomy and Deviantart.

6. I'm not single ---- yes, yes..I'm not single

(tajuk movie yang baru saya tengok semalam. )

7. I was having a very hard time thinking of all the facts above!



I wanna tag people listed below so that they will be having hard time too :P

Harith,
Ahmd Thani,
Illy
Aalim,
Kongz,
Zaza


Do it if you have time - kalau tak tak apa.
No harm done. :P

Tag #6 - First Time for Everything

Dah lama ditag oleh Illy tapi baru sekarang nak buat. Sorry Illy. Sebelum ni tak ada mood nak buat tag. The tag is about "First Time in Everything" - rasa macam pernah buat tapi boleh kot dibuat sekali lagi since there are way too many first times. :P

I'll just copy her first times..yeah..yeah I'm a lazy lad!

1) First time naik kapal terbang
Last year - to Germany. About 13 hours of flight. Mak aku risau sebab aku pertama kali naik kapal terbang pun dah kena naik lama-lama.

2) First time beranak
Erm...erm...erm. Next question please.

3) First time pergi oversea
Last year juga.

4) First time duduk jauh dr famili
Form 4 - masuk MRSM Pengkalan Chepa.

5) First time keje
Tak pernah lagi - ada lah tolong ayah buat rumah sikit2 masa cuti dulu-dulu.

6) First time rasa diri gemuk
Erk..NEVER!

7) First time bercinta
Apa itu cinta? :P

8) First time rasa diri cantek
Cantek tak..cute ada lah.. Hoho :P

9) First time masuk cinema
2004 - Masa mula-mula masuk UTP. The first lucky movie is "White Dragon" ke apa namanya.

10) First time admitted in hospital
Masa kecik-kecik. Tak ingat bila sebab kecik sangat masa tu. Hahaha.

11) I would like to Tag :

Kak Budu
Abe Harith
Ahmad Thani

Sila buat kalau ada masa + mood.
Kalau tak, tak apa. No harm done.

Sekian. One or two? more tag to go.