"It takes millions of people to complete this world but it only takes you to complete me."

Just forget about the title. It is not at-all related to what I'm going to put in this entry. I simply love it. So, it is February now! Time flies too fast..sometimes I feel like it is still 2009. Whatever it is, I like this February for some reasons.

1. Chinese New Year (CNY) - means holiday...and yeah, I have applied for some more holidays in addition to CNY. I am actually planning to prepare for my sister's engagement ceremony, and going to some nice places (Beaches is one of them of course!). Congrats to my sister who will get married this year. Wish you all the best!

2. I've wanted to buy a new camera since after my internship last two years, but I never did because I already bought one during my internship. Now I think it is about time to buy another one. It will be my fourth camera. Not sure this time it will be another Canon or not. Still surveying what's the best based on my budget & other criteria.

3. I'm happy to share that my work in deviantart:




..is now one of my best seller in my gallery! It all started after three days I posted the work on the site & someone has bought a 36 x 36 inch print of the photo. Now, 5 pieces of the same photo have been sold. Alhamdulillah :)

4. Now almost everyone is on Facebook. It's like you're left behind if you're not on Facebook. I can see some people who update their Facebook status almost every hour, of every day. I'm very impressed! I don't even have idea of what to share on daily basis! I still remember how I loved Friendster about two to three years ago, and now the hype is not there. Will Facebook become like it one day? Well, lets just wait n see..

Enough said. More updates later if I have time + mood. ^_^

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha...

Alhamdulillah, Insya Allah aku akan balik kampung sempena hari raya korban esok. Ingatkan tahun ni sekali lagi terpaksa beraya di rantauan macam tahun dua tahun lepas kerana tanggungjawab kerja.

Hari raya korban @ haji memang tak semeriah hari raya puasa (persiapan untuk menyambutnya pun x sehebat hari raya puasa), tapi aku rasa hari raya haji sangat special kerana adanya ibadah korban.

Tiga hari lepas aku akhirnya selamat mengupdate Windows Vista kepada Windows 7. So far so good. Ada improvement sedikit daripada Vista in term of performance and user interface. I like the new user interface walaupun baru beberapa hari digunakan - still adapting myself with it. :)

My current desktop with Windows 7:

Back to the topik, aku ingin mengucapkan
Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha kepada semua rakan-rakan di mana jua anda berada...semoga berbahagia hendaknya. :)

Cari Jodoh...

It's such a long time I didn't do anything about this blog except accessing the links to my friends' blogs at the right side. I really admire some of friends who can keep their blog updated all the time and their entries are really fun to read. Care to give some tips? :)

About the title, it's NOT me who is going to "cari jodoh". It's not in any way related to me. It's actually a song by "Wali Band" that I recently enjoy listening to as suggested by my desperate little brother weeks ago :P. Memang kelakar sikit lirik dia (ada jugak part yang aku tak setuju, cth: apa salah ibuku???), tapi lagunya memang catchy. Video dia pun kelakar... I love how the guy finally manage to "cari jodoh" at the end of the clip. Layan...~ ;)

You can watch the video HERE

Wali Band - Cari Jodoh

Apa salahku apa salah ibuku
Hidupku dirundung pilu
Tak ada yang mau dan menginginkan aku
Tuk jadi pengobat pilu
Tuk jadi penawar rindu
Tuk jadi kekasih hatiku

*
Timur ke barat selatan ke utara
Tak juga aku berjumpa
Dari musim duren hingga musim rambutan
Tak kunjung aku dapatkan
Tak jua aku temukan
Oh tuhan inikah cobaan

**
Ibu-ibu bapak-bapak
Siapa yang punya anak
Bilang aku aku yang tengah malu
Sama teman-temanku
Karna cuma diriku yang tak laku-laku

***
Pengumuman-pengumuman
Siapa yang mau bantu
Tolong aku kasihani aku
Tolong carikan diriku kekasih hatiku
Siapa yang mau

Back to *, **, ***

Ibu bapak punya anak
Bilang-bilang aku aku yang tengah malu
Sama teman-temanku
Karna cuma diriku yang tak laku-laku

Back to ***

Last but not least, my latest work in deviantART:

Feel free to comment (here or there)

See you later, then :D

Berhabuk lagi berdebu.

Sudah lebih 3 bulan tanpa apa-apa blog update. Sudah berhabuk, berdebu dan segala macam ber.. lagi blog aku yang tak seberapa ni. Aku sebenarnya ketandusan idea untuk menulis. Selepas tamat belajar di UTP, aku hanya duduk berehat dan bersenang-lenang di rumah. Mak aku pun cakap, rehat2 sajalah setelah penat belajar selama ini..lepas ni kena kerja dah tak ada masa nak rehat lagi...aku setuju saja =D

Last month, I went back to UTP for the UTP 9th Convocation ceremony. Dapat juga menerima scroll daripada Tun Dr. Mahathir. Bukan apa, aku dulu mula-mula masuk UTP asyik berangan-angan untuk menerima scroll daripada Tun. Famili aku, kecuali dua orang adik aku semua berkesempatan datang meraikan majlis konvokesyen aku. Alhamdulillah, segalanya berjalan lancar.

bersama mak dan ayah selepas menerima ijazah.

bersama best buddy at the evening after ceremony.

As for career part, alhamdulillah, I am now part of Vinyl Chloride (M) Sdn. Bhd. (VCMSB), a PETRONAS subsidiary company. Being appointed as a Process Engineer, responsible for Polyvinyl Chloride (PVC) process technology, I'm not really sure about my exact scope of work so far since I was there for only three days (of briefing and induction program, etc), but I think it will be very challenging. I'm quite nervous. To think of it, will I be able to cope really well with the working environment later? Apa-apa pun, aku sentiasa berharap dan bedoa semoga segala yang aku lakukan nanti aku mendapat keberkatan daripada-Nya. Insya Allah.

As for the blogging part, I'll try my best to update it whenever I have time and ideas. and mood too. Kepada semua teman seperjuangan, aku doakan semoga kita masing-masing dapat mencapai apa yang diimpikan, dan semoga perjuangan kita sentiasa mendapat keberkatan daripada Allah. Amin.

Selamat berpuasa semua. =D

Happy Earth Day!

Happy Earth Day!

Help to save the world as much as we can, because it is dying...





p/s: Thanks to my best buddy who treated me with coconut shake and roti john yesterday, at pasar malam (might be the last pasar malam in UTP). Why he suddenly being sweet? Ask him for detail. Hint: maybe because he is surrounded by sweetness all around him? :P

Ah, I'm going for the test now. Gas Process Engineering...wish me luck. I need lots of luck for this course.. :(

The Long Awaited Update

Akhirnya, dapat juga aku update blog. Bukan sebab internet connection di UTP dah okay. It never has and never will. Semuanya sebab Celcom Broadband. Thanks to my brother who has allowed me to use his USB modem, and he will sponsor some of the payment starting from this month. Look at the modem glowing....in blue (the one glowing in red is my plug extension) XD

Celcom broadband (direfer sebagai "beruk"band oleh abg aku andainya ada yang tak kena dengan connectionnya..hahaha).

So, semalam aku dan best buddy ke Ipoh setelah agak lama tidak menghirup udara luar UTP. Udara UTP memanglah masih boleh dihirup, tapi kadang-kadang kena juga merasa udara luar. Lagipun baru sahaja selesai pre-EDX presentation FYP II..agak byk juga la seorang Dr. M (bukan nama sebenar) ni menanyakan soalan. huhu. Plan untuk makan di Sushi King dan membeli sedikit barang apa yang patut.

The plastic bags...made from non-degradable polymers - Polyethylene (PE). Dr. Z (nama sebenar), see how I apply your teaching here :D

Things that I bought:

• 6 soy bean 6 x RM1.78
• Hot (RM5.90) & Digital Camera magazine (RM9)
• A4 paper from Tesco 440 sheets 80gsm (RM7.95)
• Mamee RM3.15
• Maggi RM3.68
• Kickapo Joy Juice RM2.38
• Yoghurt RM1.25
• Nata de Coco (small one) RM1.05
• Fruitty Jelly RM2.09
• Spoon and fork (RM 1.99 each set)
• Mr. Potato RM2.98
• Select Mineral Water (not in the photo) RM13.50
  
• USB Vacuum Cleaner RM9.90

Total RM77.52. It's all everything I need except for some junk foods, and the USB vacuum cleaner. I bought it because it's CUTE. :D Next, we went to Sushi King - it's our alternative since we are avoiding ourself from most of the Western Cuisines (not always but most of the time, since the Palestinian issue this year).

The birthday boy - late celebration. Happy Belated birthday \o/

The healthy good taste.. :P

Anyway, enough with the funky things. It is almost the end of my study in UTP...and I don't plan to continue my study here or anywhere else. I really hope that I'll get a good job as soon as possible and be able to contribute something to my parents and family...at least a little if not much.

Good luck to all my friends, in study as well as future career. :)

Because English is a global language...

We'll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes,

But the plural of ox becomes oxen, not oxes.

One fowl is a goose, but two are called geese,

Yet the plural of moose should never be meese.

You may find a lone mouse or a nest full of mice,

Yet the plural of house is houses, not hice.

If the plural of man is always called men,

Then shouldn't the plural of pan be called pen?

If I speak of my foot and show you my feet,

And I give you a boot, would a pair be called beet?

If one is a tooth and a whole set are teeth,

Why shouldn't the plural of booth be called beeth?

Then one may be that, and three would be those,

Yet hat in the plural would never be hose,

And the plural of cat is cats, not cose.

We speak of a brother and also of brethren,

But though we say mother, we never say methren.

Then the masculine pronouns are he, his and him,

But imagine the feminine: she, shis and shim!

Let's face it - English is a crazy language.

There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger;

Neither apple nor pine in pineapple.

English muffins weren't invented in England.

We take English for granted, but if we explore its paradoxes,

We find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square,

And a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing,

Grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham?

Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend.

If you have a bunch of odds and ends

And get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught?

If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?

Sometimes I think all the folks who grew up speaking English

Should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane.

In what other language do people recite at a play and play at a recital?

We ship by truck but send cargo by ship.

We have noses that run and feet that smell.

We park in a driveway and drive in a parkway.

And how can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same,

While a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language

In which your house can burn up as it burns

Down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out,

And in which an alarm goes off by going on.

And, in closing, if Father is Pop, how come Mother's not Mop?


>Forwarded message in Friendster - from a friend. :

Are you happy?

I found these beautiful thankfulness words from my friend in DeviantART, and I thought it would be nice to share them with you here.


I am happy:

For the wife who says it's hot dogs tonight because
she is home with me and not out with someone else.

For the husband who is on the sofa being a couch potato
because he is home with me and not out at the bars.

For the teenagers who are complaining about doing dishes
because it means they are at home and not on the streets.

For the taxes I pay
because it means I am employed.

For the mess to clean after a party
because it means I have been surrounded by friends.

For the clothes that fit a little too snug
because it means I have enough to eat.

For my shadow that watches me work
because it means that I am out in the sunshine.

For a lawn that needs mowing, windows that need cleaning,
and gutters that need fixing because it means I have a home.

For all the complaining I hear about the government
because it means we have freedom of speech.

For the parking spot I find at the far end of the lot
because I am capable of walking and I have been blessed
with transportation.

For my huge heating bill
because it means I am warm.

For the lady behind me who sings off key
because it means I can hear.

For the pile of laundry and ironing
because it means I have clothes to wear.

For weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day
because it means I have been capable of working hard.

For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours
because it means I am alive...


Are you happy? Whatever you do, I hope you are.

Caffeine = Insomnia

I think I haven't sleep for the last 24 hours. I don't really remember how much caffeine did I take last night. I tried to sleep but the caffeine in my blood pretty much told me not to. I woke up and start my routine with studying? Of course not. This week is going to be the last week in UTP before Hari Raya holiday. My mind is not in UTP, not anymore...only my body is.

If you asked me, how is the final year so far? I can quickly answer, "It is very well-packed with projects, but it doesn't mean my life is over." I have to at least open my photoshop program or browse through the internet - or else I'll explode thinking of all those projects.

This is gonna be my last post before Raya, so I would like to wish all of you "Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin." Kita manusia biasa memang tak boleh lari daripada melakukan kesilapan, oleh itu marilah kita saling bermaaf-maafan sempena bulan yang mulia ini. 0-0

I need to sleep now. It's almost 7.00 AM!

Kerana bola itu bulat...

Sekarang musim bola. Secara ikhlasnya aku katakan, aku tak begitu meminati sukan yang satu ini. Aku selalu saja rasakan bola itu sukan yang bahaya. Semuanya kerana pengalaman pahit semasa bermain bola sewaktu aku di bangku sekolah. Pengalaman apa? Biarlah itu menjadi kenangan pahit aku.

Tapi apa-apa pun, aku layan saja kalau orang cakap dia minat bola, dan aku tumpang gembira saja kalau pasukan kegemaran mereka menang. Just don't go into further details; how they kick the ball, what is the angle, how they didn't manage to score, etc. Itu aku memang tak boleh tumpang sekaki. Kadang-kadang yang bercakap tu belum tentu hebat pun kalau dia yang bermain. Hahaha. Just kidding =p

Kerana bola itu bulat, dan aku tak begitu berminat untuk melihat orang mengejar dan merebut bola yang satu itu, maka aku pun menghabiskan masa untuk menonton filem-filem yang semakin memenuhi cakera keras (hard disk) aku. Latest hindi movie yang aku tengok, Jodha Akbar. Not so great though. I like Devdas a lot more than this movie. Aishwarya Rai is much more elegant in Devdas.

Movie lain? Saawariya, juga Hindi movie. Agak membosankan. Lepas ni nak tengok Taare Zameen Par, another award winning movie. Hopefully best dan dapat cover 6 jam yang aku bazirkan untuk Saawariya dan Jodha Akbar. Thanks to Illy for suggesting this movie. I have a feeling that this movie is good.

Any more suggestions for great movies? Tak kisahlah bahasa apa, aku layankan saja. Janji best. :D

Next time will be a special tribute post. See you.. :D

+About Friendship+

This is not my thoughts, it is from a professional photographer in DeviantART, Pavi (from Finland). I really admire the way she describes friendship, in a very meaningful and truthful way.


I have thought about friendship a lot recently.

To me a (true) friend is a person whom I can count on. A friend is someone who is there for you when you have hard times. Also a friend shares the joy with you and encourages you. A friend shows you respect and understands you and your choices. Trust is an important part in this bond. A friend doesn't judge your personality. If she/he criticizes you, it's for a good reason and you know it. If they hurt you for some reason (it happens sometimes), they apologize and try to make it up to you.

A friend is someone you can laugh with, or cry with. A friend is someone you can have fun with. You don't have to worry what she/he thinks of you. You don't have to fear their reactions towards you. You don't have to be unsure if they like you or not. You know in your heart that they do. And they know you like them and respect them. Everything you want them to do for for you, you do for them.

A good and trusted friend is really hard to find. Sometimes you think you have found one but it wasn't real. Some are just using you for selfish reasons and it makes you feel very hurt inside. When you find a friend, the one who makes you happy and helps you strive for everything you believe in, you have found a rare treasure. It's a miracle you don't want to lose.

If you have true friends like that right now, appreciate and show them love! They deserve it. You'll lose nothing but can gain everything..

These are my thoughts.. what about yours?

Have a nice day!

p.s: It is indeed very hard to find true friends. If you have true friends, be grateful and do appreciate them endlessly.

Survey on internship programme.

Here it goes, the poll result.

Question:
Internship will end soon. How do you feel?

Possible answers:
1.Great. No more work loads. No more over time.
2.Great. Back to student life. UTP. Ipoh. DC++.
3.Sad. I will leave my working life and great experiences during internship.
4. Sad. I will miss my office mates and my supervisor.


The result:

The most chosen answer is 'Great. Back to student life. UTP. Ipoh. DC++.'
How much we have missed UTP and our homes?
I feel this way, too. Missing home and hectic life in UTP :D
Most of us feel that studying is better than working, huh?
Ok..sometimes working is better than studying - for certain reasons.

At the second place: 'Sad. I will leave my working life and great experiences during internship.'
Not all experiences are good, but that is the reality- the truth.
Good or bad, all of them are memories that will not be forgotten, forever.
Put aside the bad things, and keep the good ones alive in our hearts. :D

Third place: 'Sad. I will miss my office mates and my supervisor.'
We do have new friends. If 7-8 months is not enough for even a new friend during internship, then it must be a very sad story to be told later. Friends, we will always need them, and the best of all are the ones that we really need whether we are sad or happy, whether we are alone or not.

Last but not least: 'Great. No more work loads. No more over time.'
I guess most of the interns are not burdened with tonne of works. But I do hear from some of the interns that they were burdened with lots of works in some work places (nama syarikat dirahsiakan atas sebab-sebab tertentu). Just bear with it okay, only one month++ to go. :p

Chemical plant visit: I love chemicals even more :D

Aku buat dua post hari ini. Maaflah, ada banyak benda yang nak dikongsi bersama. Kamu tanak baca pun tak apa. Aku gian untuk mengupdate blog ni. Heheh.

Hari ni aku menghadiri seminar di tempat kerja. Bukanlah seminar sangat, tapi lebih kepada melawat chemical plant, tempat penghasilan Neopor dan Styropor. BASF menghasilkan banyak produk berasaskan polymer, dan 33% daripadanya ialah bahan asas untuk penghasilan plastik.

Ada satu lecture tentang plastik. Makin bertambah kesedaran aku tentang betapa pentingnya plastik dalam kehidupan. Look around you, plastic is everywhere. Ceramah hari ini dalam bahasa Inggeris. So, tak perlulah translator lagi. Seminar tentang environment beberapa bulan lepas diadakan dalam bahasa Jerman, so most of the time aku cuma ternganga (literally la - bukan ternganga betul-betul). Ceramah hari ini mengingatkan aku tentang lecture di UTP. Adeh..malas pulak rasanya nak kembali belajar.

Dalam plant tersebut, kami diberi peluang untuk melihat lebih dekat bagaimana Neopor dan Styropor dihasilkan. Siap boleh sentuh lagi the last product yang belum dipacking untuk pasaran. Kagum jugalah aku, mungkin kerana selama ini aku asyik berada dalam office saja. Peralatan yang digunakan pun nampak canggih. Hehehe.

At 2.30 p.m., seminar dan plant visit tamat seperti yang dijadualkan. Aku kagum juga dengan time management di sini, semuanya berjalan seperti yang dijadualkan. Tak ada tangguh-tangguh walau seminit. Dan hari ini, aku gembira kerana dapat makan percuma. Makan tengah hari tadi ditaja oleh BASF. Alhamdulillah :D

Hari ini aku rasa aku sangat bertuah kerana memilih Chemical Engineering 4 tahun lepas. Walaupun aku masih belum tahu macam mana masa depan aku nanti, di manakah aku akan tercampak, namun, jauh di sudut hati aku, aku berasa sangat bersyukur. Kerana chemical engineering, aku berada di sini hari ini. Dan kerana chemical engineering aku dapat bertemu beberapa orang istimewa dalam hidup aku. :D


p.s: Bosan kan cerita aku. Maaflah aku syok sendiri hari ini. :p

Kisah duit syiling

Baru semalam aku post tentang macam mana attitude orang Jerman, hari ini aku mahu tak mahu kena buat satu post lagi. (alasan untuk update blog, harap maklum :p)

Al kisahnya bermula begini. Semalam aku pergi ke PennyMarkt dengan Mizi. Masa tu jam lebih kurang 8.30 malam. (Supermarket tu tutup jam 10.00 mlm). Kami memang membawa banyak syiling. In fact aku bawa satu kotak syiling yang aku kumpul selama aku berada di sini. Kat sini memang banyak guna syiling pun. Ada 1 sen, 2 sen, 5 sen, 10 sen. 1 euro, 2 euro etc. Niat di hati nak habiskan duit syiling tu. Maklumlah, banyak sangat duit syiling, nak buat balik Malaysia pun memberatkan beg saja. Ni dia kotak syiling tu.


Kat market tu, aku pun amikla barang-barang yang aku nak beli berupa air mineral, udang dan telur. Untuk memudahkan sesi pembayaran dekat kaunter, aku pun congaklah terus. Aku bilang cukup-cukup duit syiling yang akan aku gunakan untuk membayar nanti. Semuanya 5.88 Euro.

Sampai di kaunter, aku terus letak syiling yang sudah siap dikira dekat kaunter. Memang banyaklah syiling. Bertaburan lambakan syiling dekat kaunter tu. Ada banyak 10 sen dan 20 sen. You can imagine how many coins were there.

Nak dijadikan cerita, ada la sorang akak yang beratur belakang aku dan Mizi ni. Dia mula bertanya dalam bahasa Jerman. Haish..aku tak faham. Aku agak je lah, mungkin dia nak bayar barang dia dulu sebab it takes a lot of time untuk penjaga kaunter tu mengira syiling yang banyak. Aku pun selamba la jawab, "Ya..ya".

Lepas tu akak tu mula tanya penjaga kaunter sambil menghulur-hulurkan duitnya (a 10 euro note). Dia bertanya.."Wie viel? - yang ini aku faham. Maksudnya "Berapa?". Masa tu, aku dan Mizi mula perasan. Rupa-rupanya akak tu nak tolong bayarkan untuk aku. Mungkin dia simpati melihat aku terpaksa menggunakan syiling yang begitu banyak hanya untuk membayar tiga barang yang simple.

Lebih malang lagi, setelah barang-barangku habis di scan, aku dapati congakan aku tersasar. Harga sebenar ialah 6.48 Euro. Aish..macam mana bleh tersasar ni. Chemical engineer apakah ini? Adeh. Aku mula menyalahkan diri kerana terlalu bergantung kepada kalkulator selama ini.

Apa lagi, aku pun mengeluarkan kotak syiling aku untuk menambah jumlah yang tak cukup. Bila akak tu melihat kotak itu, bertambah-tambahlah dia simpati. Mana taknya, masa tu dalam kotak itu banyak yang tinggal duit-duit syiling yang sangat kecil nilainya - 1 sen, 2 sen, 5 sen. Dia pun terus berkata-kata dalam bahasa Jerman sambil menghulur-hulurkan duit. Berkeras nak tolong bayarkan agaknya.

Aku dan Mizi masa tu dah tak boleh tahan nak tergelak. Tapi sempat control lagi. Aku cakap "Nein..nein". - No no. Mizi pulak cakap "Ist Okay".- Its okay. Dia akhirnya pasrah. Aku pun berjaya membayar menggunakan hampir separuh duit syiling yang aku kumpul.

Mizi yang juga bercadang untuk membayar barang-barangnya menggunakan duit syiling pada mulanya, terus membatalkan niat untuk berbuat demikian. Tak mahu pisang berbuah dua kali. (Ingat: Akak tu masih lagi beratur di belakang!). Kalaulah Mizi pun guna duit syiling juga, akak tu mesti bertambah-tambah kesian. Dua sekawan ni orang miskin agaknya. Nak beli barang pun terpaksa guna syiling. Hahaha.

Dalam perjalanan baliknya, kami tergelak besar. Mana taknya, niat di hati nak habiskan syiling saja tapi silap-silap haribulan boleh dapat barang percuma.

Terfikir juga, aku bukannya kenal pun akak tu, kenapalah baik sangat? Mungkinkah sebab culture diorang memang begitu. Sebelum ini pun aku pernah tengok seorang pakcik tolong bayarkan untuk seorang budak kecil yang tidak membawa duit secukupnya untuk membeli barang.

Dan aku terfikir juga, kalaulah di Malaysia, kita lihat orang yang kita tak kenal, foreigner pulak tu, bayar guna lambakan syiling dekat kaunter supermarket, adakah kita akan berbuat seperti yang dibuat oleh akak itu? I think it is a NO. Besar kan perbezaan antara culture kita dan mereka.


p.s: Lain kali kalau nak guna duit syiling lagi, aku akan pergi time supermarket tu tak ada orang, barulah boleh guna syiling tanpa was-was. Hahahaha.

99th Post - Don't Believe The Hype

*My 99th post: This is a positive side of my view.

It is almost 6 months aku menjejakkan kaki di sini. Memang tak pernah berubah perspective aku tentang orang-orang di sini. In term of attitudes, they are good, and some of them are even better than some Malaysians that I have met before.

Hari ni aku naik bas seperti biasa ke tempat kerja dari pintu pagar depan BASF (Tor 7). Kebetulan aku duduk dekat dengan driver bas. Sampai kat satu stop dekat cafetaria, dia mula bertanya dalam bahasa German. Aku blur. Tak tahu nak jawab apa. Aku cuma bagitau aku tak reti cakap Jerman. What happened lepas tu?

Driver tu dengan rendah dirinya cakap, ' Sorry, my english is very bad'.

Aku cakap 'It's okay.'

Dan dia balas 'No, it's not okay'.

Aku cuma terdiam. Dalam hati, aku rasa aku yang patut malu kerana tidak dapat berbahasa Jerman sedangkan aku berada di Germany.

Dia pun tanya lagi, ' Where are you going? Tor 12?'

Aku pun cuba mempraktikkan serba sedikit bahasa Jerman yang aku tahu. 'Nein. Nexte Hastestelle' (ejaan ni konfem salah, ntah btul ke x aku pronounce tadi..hahaha). Maksudnya ''no, next stop.'' Kebetulan masa tu aku dah nak turun next stop.

Dia pun hentikan bas kat next stop. 'Here?'

Aku jawab 'Ja' - yes

Dia cakap 'Bye'

Dan aku reply 'Danke, tschüss' - Thank you, bye


Turun saja dari bas, aku tersenyum sendirian. Kalau ingat-ingat balik, dah agak ramai orang di sini yang aku jumpa, rata-ratanya sama dengan driver bas yang baru aku jumpa tadi. Walaupun mereka cuma tahu berbahasa Inggeris serba sedikit saja, tapi apabila ditegur atau menegur kita, mereka akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk berkomunikasi.

Kalau nak tolong tunjuk jalan, mereka akan betul-betul tolong. Nak ajar cara keluarkan duit, nak bagitau bas atau tram mana kena naik untuk ke satu-satu tempat, mereka akan tolong dengan bersungguh-sungguh.

Teringat seorang mak cik tua yang baya nenek aku. Dia tegur aku dalam bahasa Jerman, masa tu aku tengah tunggu bas. Seperti biasa aku cakap aku tak paham. Susah-susah dia explain pakai sign tangan semua, rupa-rupanya nak tanya aku datang dari mana.

Rata-rata yang aku jumpa juga, selalunya guess aku datang dari Korea (:D) atau China (erk..). Bila cakap Malaysia... barulah mereka kata 'oooo'... Aku bangga juga sebab ramai orang kat sini kenal Malaysia. Bila cakap Malaysia - diorang selalu relate kan dengan Twin Towers, Kuala Lumpur. Siapa cakap Twin Towers satu pembaziran.


Kesimpulannya, most of the people here are very friendly. Cuma satu saja golongan orang yang aku tak suka di sini - orang mabuk teruk, lepas tu merapu-rapu dalam tram atau bas. Tapi setakat ni baru dua tiga kali aku jumpa orang macam tu.

So kawan-kawan, don't believe the hype that orang-orang Jerman kasar, dan selalunya tak berperikemanusiaan seperti yang selalu ditonjolkan dalam filem-filem Hollywood. :D

p.S: 99 posts including the drafts that I do not wish to publish. Does that count as well?

Ignoring is a bliss, but can you ignore everything?

cara mengorat :p

Lunch hour. Masa untuk makan. Tapi kurang berselera. Aku rasa berat badan aku dah turun lagi. Tak ada penimbang berat buat masa ni, tapi ada orang cakap aku makin kurus. I don't want to believe it but if it is the truth, can I just ignore it?

Badan rasa macam kurang sihat. Penat. Sakit kepala. Otak berserabut dengan macam-macam benda. Mungkin sebab semalam tidur tak menentu. Siangnya tidur hampir tiga jam (12.30 tgh - 3.30 ptg). Malamnya, sebelum Isya tidur hampir sejam. Bangun solat Isya (11.40 malam), lepas tu cuba untuk tidur tapi tak lena. Bangkit kembali. Sempat layan satu movie, dan beberapa potong lagu.

Tidur kembali selepas Subuh (around 3.00 pagi), tapi masih tak lena. Last time aku tengok jam, pukul 4.00 pagi. Lepas tu, tertidurlah agaknya.

7.00 pagi bangun. Kepala terasa berat. Tak cukup tidurkah? (Ikut perkiraan tidur semalam 3+1+3 = hampir 7 jam). Entahlah. Kebelakangan ini aku memang susah untuk tidur. Aku perlukan suasana yang betul-betul tenang barulah dapat melelapkan mata. Maaflah, definisi keadaan tenang aku berbeza dengan orang lain. (Or can I just ignore it).

Beginilah nasib, bila kepala berserabut. Nak tidur pun susah. Mana mahu fikir untuk buat kerja lain lagi. Bertambah-tambah sakit kepala. Adeh x 100. Nak ignore lagi, bleh?

Jangan pula berasa pelik dengan waktu-waktu yang aku sebutkan. Di sini, memang begitulah keadaannya. Kadang-kadang terfikir alangkah bagusnya kalau berada di Malaysia.

Subuh - 2.59 pagi

Zuhur - 1.24 ptg

Asar - 5.38 ptg

Maghrib - 9.19 mlm

Isya' - 11.35 mlm

P.s: Maaflah entri-entri kebelakangan ini asyik bercerita tentang benda-benda yang kurang positif. I will try to be more positive afterwards okay. I'll stop from updating the blog for a while until I have positive entry to share. Deal.

Search for 'ignore' in Google, this is the first search result: wikiHow: How to Ignore People. LOL. Can you really do that?

Yes, ignoring is a bliss, but you can not possibly ignore everything.

Living is not an easy path, and dying is not, either...

• Just because I made a mistake once, it doesn't mean that I am forever guilty. Just because I said it wrong once, you don't have to judge me forever. You don't have the right to.

• If you walk away from me, don't expect me to come closer to you. I will walk further away from you.

• Sometimes sorry is not enough. You have to change. But will you? And sometimes forgiveness is not enough. You have to be able to mend. But will you?
  

• I don't care if you call me names, but don't mind if I do the same thing to you.

• Accept people as who they are, and you will find that you're good enough to be accepted. Sometimes, just accept yourself as who you are, and people will accept you.

• Why bother if you don't really care. Why ask if you know the answer. Why are you there, when I need you here.
  

• If you think you're good enough, don't assume that all people will be as good as you. Don't don't assume all other people are evil either. That doesn't make you are any better.

• Don't judge people by their appearances. Judge them by their attitudes, because changing appearances is easier than changing attitudes.

Life is complex, can it really be easy?
Or is it me who think of it that way?


p.s: Tengah serabut dengan macam-macam benda, datang pula judgement-judgement yang membuatkan aku bertambah serabut. People just like to judge, even if they are not judges!

Do you prefer talking or listening...

Grey's Anatomy is back. Since it was discontinued a couple of months ago, the show is on air again. Season 4 Episodes 12-14 are already there. I watched the show, and it is getting more interesting with the contest among them, the clinical trials and so on.

Meredith (the main character) takes the therapy due to her break up with Dr. Derek Shepherd. Only after her third or fourth therapy she starts to talk. It is really hard to talk about our problem to someone, isn't it? What about listening to the others problem? For me, both are really hard unless we put our trust on each other. To trust and to be trusted is very difficult.

Too much of talking will lead to a lot of mistakes in our words. Too much of listening will lead to misunderstanding that you're not really into a conversation. So what we have to do in a sharing session? Be moderate. It is not that simple.

For me, sometimes when I face some problems, I do need time, for I know if I talk or listen too much, it is vulnerable to more erroneous than the righteous things. I have this thinking "I am dying inside, who will know and understand well except me? And even if I let you know, will you really care? Will you be able to understand me?" That is why I rather keep my problems for myself. I rather be keep quite and not to make a fuss over a small crappy thing.

Sometimes I think that something is better to be kept secret as long as we can bear with it. Don't just talk and voice it out, for some words are too sharp that they can bleed someone's heart so much. I will try to cope with all the words, but I do have limit for my patient. When it comes to the limit, I tend to be emotional. That is what they always say. Emo, emo, emo...

But personally, if you really know me, when it comes to my limit, I actually tend to be quieter than before. I will talk less and I will prefer not to talk or listen too much. When it comes to this stage, don't ask me what is my problem. I will take some time to think back of what I have done, and hopefully everything will get better. My confidence might fall to the lowest level during the thinking. Trust me, it takes time for me to regain my confidence.


"You like to hear nice words, so don't make others listen harsh words from you. They might do the same to you one day"

"Trust is not a matter of how much you can talk and listen to someone about some matters, it is about how much you can talk and listen to someone about everything."

"It is really difficult to change our mind and perspective about something. It is like changing the shape of a rock by using droplets of water"


P.S: This entry is not in any way related to my current situation, it is just what I think about talking and listening when I do have problem with both.

Some Quotes...

Hari ini, masuk kerja balik setelah bercuti seminggu. Dah berkarat otak nak mulakan balik simulation dan report. Intern baru (Mark) masuk, intern lama (Azman) keluar. It reminds me of how much time that is left for me here. So sad thinking that I'm going to miss my good times here. At the same time, I am so eager to meet my friends and family in Malaysia.

Okay, quotes as promised: -

''I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself. '' - Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy
- I want to be close to somebody, but close is close, never cross the line. I learn and try to control myself not to cross the line. but sometimes I don't even realize that I have crossed that invisible line. Sorry, I too, wish that there were a rulebook for intimacy. Sorry that I crossed the line.


"People like talking about people. Makes us feel superior. Makes us feel in control. And sometimes, for some people, knowing some things makes them care." - Dr. House, House M.D. 113
- Don't we like to talk about people? Don't we like to feel superior and feel better than the others? It is true, sometimes, talking about people shows that we care about them.


''I don't want to love or to hate so much, because loving is as torturing as hating someone'' - Dae Jang Geum, Jewel in The Palace
- Feel like dying from inside as a result of hating or loving someone so badly? Then stop loving or hating someone so much. People make mistake, as much as you do, so don't hate too much. As for love, give your best love to Him.


''Words are too cruel; sometimes you don't even realize that they were cruel, but you can not take back what you have said. You tried to use words to calm the condition down, but you keep making it worse. At some point, words are too cruel that you can not even be forgiven for what you have said.They destroy love and care, they initiate hate and vengeance. The only solution is to keep quiet for some time and forget about those words.''


''Love, is not a matter of how much you love someone and how you are willing to sacrifice for the person. It is about how much your love is being accepted by that someone. Don't waste your love for someone who don't want to accept it. Remember, love is about give and take.''


''Quote, quote, quotes...''

Penatnya buat quote. No more quotes lepas ni. I miss my old diaries yang penuh dengan quotes. I miss my old PC yang penuh dengan games best. And I miss my family's old house di kampung. Lagu aku ingin pulang bergema lagi...tapi aku kena buat report dan simulation dulu!

Bye...jane..~

Online voting: Is it fair enough?

Sekarang musim blog kurang meriah. Kawan-kawan punye blog pun x diupdate sangat. Aku pun tak ada idea untuk menaip. Jadi, aku buat bancian (poll) di sisi blog. Sila-silakanlah cast your vote, lebih-lebih lagi bagi sesiapa yang belum berkesempatan untuk vote dalam pilihanraya baru-baru ini. At least boleh juga melepaskan gian untuk vote. Hehehe. =p

Ok, back to the topic. The topic for today: is online voting fair enough to decide anything? Or specifically to decide who is at the top place for a contest, or an award?

What I think:

- online voting is vulnerable to error, in which a person can cast a vote more than once (try it on my polls! Refresh the page before you vote for the second time :D).

- online voting can be done by anyone; even a small 4 year old kid who knows nothing about the poll can cast a vote by just one single click.

- not everyone can be online, so online voting does not represent the whole public.

- online voting can be totally controlled by the owner for his own purpose.

- online voting can be hacked by genius hackers, it can be voted over and over by an automatic robot.

- online voting is only for fun.

Yes, what I really think is, it is only for fun. Nothing more, nothing less.

Even if in the real voting process people can do so many tricks to achieve their own purpose, how can an online voting be a benchmark to decide anything important?

That's what I think. Tell me your opinion. Every comment (whether you agree or not) is truly appreciated.

Dan sila-silakanlah vote untuk kaler blogku. Reminder: a person can vote only once! (I accidentally voted twice) :D